How do I?

I feel connected to no one and nothing. There is too much within me that can not find rest. There is too much among you that cannot find hope.

How do I say that my heart breaks for you without letting the frequent usage of brokenness subtract from the weight of those words?
How do I communicate the love I have for you without the world’s advertising frenzy of red hearts and roses, distort the message?
How do I pray fervently for the people and situations that I have been lifting up for months…years even, without doubt entering my tone?
How do I trust you God, to come through when You haven’t or to protect me when You didn’t?
How do I keep my jaded and cynical beliefs and thoughts from over-shadowing the hope I’m striving to evoke?
Or keep the hurt and disappointment from destroying the sincerity I feel?
How do I speak the truth without losing my friend?
How do I help someone who has no hope?
How do I love someone when I so desperately want love?
How do I show someone the path that I am unable to find for myself?
How do I let go when all the people I care most about are struggling with this pain?

Picture a group of people…about a dozen or so…who have fallen through the ice into the dark depths of the water…all have varying levels of swimming abilities, but because they’re all in it and all freezing and scared they’re blindly grasping for something to hold onto and are unintentionally driving various others under the water in order to stay afloat and then those people surface and grab onto whomever is closest. That is a portrait of myself, my immediate family and closest friends. And for some odd and unexplainable reason, I seem to be coping the best although my outside does not mirror my inside.