Lord there is hardness in my heart
A weight that pins me
To my chair
When I try to stand to worship You
I know I need to trust You
But I just cannot let go
After all, where were You
With all I went through
My head and half my heart believe
Your word is truth
But there is that other part
That cried and screamed in pain
As You looked on
I didn't need Your tears
We've all got enough
I needed Your protection,
intervention
I cried to You to rescue me
And then I struggled on my own
Scared, little girl wandering alone
My fear of being hurt and my
obsession with being loved
Tearing me in half
Then the years of destruction
And I just couldn't keep going
I begged You to let me die
Neither then did You arrive
It became a game, to ask for
what I did not want
In hopes of fooling God
It always seems
No matter what
I just can not get through
Lord I know You understand
That I can't keep walking blind
No directions or
A guiding hand
So I ask You now
To be present here
To forgive my wayward heart
Show me how to trust
That You'll keep me safe
I long to know the way
You will use all things
According to Your will
Bringing glory to Your name
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I so can agree with this. I have been struggling with letting go and letting G-d bring me to a point of knowing he wants the best for me. I hate the fact of always being reminded I am dust filled with the presence of G-d in my soul.
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